Monday, May 11, 2015

Going Forward

Hey guys so I have been pretty inactive for a long while. Even before that, I know I never updated with much regularity. Life has been crazy hectic and I think certain things held me back from making this blog a space I could actually freely come to and keep up with.

This past school year was my last. This week I will be graduating college and will be done with schooling forever, or at least for the foreseeable future. While this past year HAS made it incredibly difficult to find any free time, there were also a handful of reasons keeping me from posting.

At the end of this past summer I found myself outgrowing (literally) much of my clothes and when I turned to shopping for vintage in my usual ways I was so disappointed to see that going up in a couple sizes meant letting go of some of my past shopping habits. Then winter came and I took to pants and hoodies for comfort and the whole style blogosphere fell by the wayside. And even more recently I have been dealing with body issues and how it relates to my gender identity. These past couple years have seen a huge shift in how I see myself and want to present myself, and with that I have found the whole blogging experience I once had in mind becoming less and less anything I want to do.

I never wanted to be a style blogger, really. When I started I wore pastel dresses and then found people like Scathingly Brilliant and Mermaidens who I admired in many ways. I don't regret having these individuals to inspire me to blog, but I feel in many ways they sort of set up a framework I internalized for how my own blog should be structured. But when I didn't feel like I met these standards of perfection I myself set up, I was feeling disappointed and never quite happy with this blog.

I almost wanted to delete every one of my posts and completely start over, but I need to have them as a reminder of the person I once was, as well as to remember all the sweet people who have commented and kept up with me along the way. I greatly appreciate you guys hitting that little follow button and sticking through all the radio silence.

So going forward I want more of a clean slate. I want to focus very much on whatever is important to me. I've been trying to neatly divide and compartmentalize all these aspects of myself and my interests, but that feels disingenuous to who I am as a person, and in the end leaves me feeling unhappy with my little internet presence.

I don't exactly know where to go from here, but I hope to stick with this.

(Also forgive the way the blog looks right now, I've got a lot of work to do in terms of re-doing it.)

Saturday, January 17, 2015

Ruby Rose (RWBY) Cosplay Tutorial

The prodigal daughter returns! I'll be honest, its been way too cold for cute outfit posts, so I'm posting this long overdue post about my Ruby costume. It was the first thing I've ever really sewn by myself (aka I couldn't go harass my mother when I was confused with something) and it was one of the first cosplays I've done where nearly everything was handmade. A lot of blood, sweat, and tears went in to it and I'm happy to finally share it with everyone!

Thursday, October 30, 2014

Closet Costumes with Paint the Gown Red

Hello Wandering Past readers! I’m Jamie of lifestyle blog Paint the Gown Red and I’m here save the day! For all of you procrastinators out there looking for a last minute costume, look no further. Delores and I are swapping blogs today and sharing simple costume ideas comprised of items you probably already have in your closet. Hooray! Be sure to head over to Paint the Gown Red to see Delores’ neat idea, and keep on reading for mine.

Friday, October 24, 2014

New York Comic Con 2014

How do I compress four days of NYCC in to one post? Like always, this con was fun to see handmade things, find new artists, and just be surrounded by other awesome cosplayers. 

Monday, September 8, 2014

I've Been a Riverbed

Sunday morning we crawled out of bed feeling super motivated to just go do something. After some pumpkin spice coffee, pink donuts, and failed attempts at some local thrifting, we headed to Paterson Great Falls. I had never been there before, so I was pretty disappointed to find that there is no surrounding forest, just a small chunk of nature in an otherwise ugly town. So with trusty Google maps I randomly picked another state park for us to go to. What we found was a gorgeous stretch of forest on the NJ/NY border. I felt so inspired by all the beautiful nature around us that I ended up taking hundreds of photos, which will probably make an appearance here in their own respective post.

I normally try to refrain from photo heavy outfit posts so people don't get sick of my face, but this location was just too beautiful and I've become attached to many of these images.

Monday, September 1, 2014

In Flux

We ventured out through the countryside again this past weekend, which did well to clear my head. This summer has been particularly stressful and I've been feeling like the weight of the world has been pressing down upon me. Today marks the end of my summer vacation and with it I have been mulling over the past few months. Although I didn't get out much or accomplish as much as I wanted, I feel like I took some necessary steps and I'm on the right path.

Monday, August 18, 2014

Such Great Heights

Ever since getting re-situated back here in NJ I have been finding it hard to get good outfit photos. New Jersey, like most of you know, is home to suburbs after suburbs where the occasional parks are packed with children, people exercising, etc. As someone who didn't grow up in "Suburbia," its definitely an adjustment to the whole packed-like-sardines type of life. Although I don't mind hearing my neighbors outside playing with their kids while I type this, I definitely find it harder for me to go outside and shoot. I always feel like people will be looking at me strangely or judging me, in which case I freeze up and all the images come out terribly anyway. Its not just outfit photos either. When I was still shooting out in the world I would let the most perfect of pictures pass by if I knew a stranger was within viewing range. Even though its tempting to just take indoor outfit photos because of the ease of it all, going outside is an excuse for an adventure and definitely makes me happier with the photos in the end.