Hey guys so I have been pretty inactive for a long while. Even before that, I know I never updated with much regularity. Life has been crazy hectic and I think certain things held me back from making this blog a space I could actually freely come to and keep up with.
This past school year was my last. This week I will be graduating college and will be done with schooling forever, or at least for the foreseeable future. While this past year HAS made it incredibly difficult to find any free time, there were also a handful of reasons keeping me from posting.
At the end of this past summer I found myself outgrowing (literally) much of my clothes and when I turned to shopping for vintage in my usual ways I was so disappointed to see that going up in a couple sizes meant letting go of some of my past shopping habits. Then winter came and I took to pants and hoodies for comfort and the whole style blogosphere fell by the wayside. And even more recently I have been dealing with body issues and how it relates to my gender identity. These past couple years have seen a huge shift in how I see myself and want to present myself, and with that I have found the whole blogging experience I once had in mind becoming less and less anything I want to do.
I never wanted to be a style blogger, really. When I started I wore pastel dresses and then found people like Scathingly Brilliant and Mermaidens who I admired in many ways. I don't regret having these individuals to inspire me to blog, but I feel in many ways they sort of set up a framework I internalized for how my own blog should be structured. But when I didn't feel like I met these standards of perfection I myself set up, I was feeling disappointed and never quite happy with this blog.
I almost wanted to delete every one of my posts and completely start over, but I need to have them as a reminder of the person I once was, as well as to remember all the sweet people who have commented and kept up with me along the way. I greatly appreciate you guys hitting that little follow button and sticking through all the radio silence.
So going forward I want more of a clean slate. I want to focus very much on whatever is important to me. I've been trying to neatly divide and compartmentalize all these aspects of myself and my interests, but that feels disingenuous to who I am as a person, and in the end leaves me feeling unhappy with my little internet presence.
I don't exactly know where to go from here, but I hope to stick with this.
(Also forgive the way the blog looks right now, I've got a lot of work to do in terms of re-doing it.)
Saturday, January 17, 2015
The prodigal daughter returns! I'll be honest, its been way too cold for cute outfit posts, so I'm posting this long overdue post about my Ruby costume. It was the first thing I've ever really sewn by myself (aka I couldn't go harass my mother when I was confused with something) and it was one of the first cosplays I've done where nearly everything was handmade. A lot of blood, sweat, and tears went in to it and I'm happy to finally share it with everyone!
Thursday, October 30, 2014
Hello Wandering Past readers! I’m Jamie of lifestyle blog Paint the Gown Red and I’m here today...to save the day! For all of you procrastinators out there looking for a last minute costume, look no further. Delores and I are swapping blogs today and sharing simple costume ideas comprised of items you probably already have in your closet. Hooray! Be sure to head over to Paint the Gown Red to see Delores’ neat idea, and keep on reading for mine.
Friday, October 24, 2014
Wednesday, August 13, 2014
Although this summer in Miami may not have been the most exciting couple of months, I was glad to just be back home. Even though I didn't do all that I had originally wanted to, I'm just happy that I had a chance to be back in a place so familiar and comfortable. However, I did get the chance to spend some time in some new places as well. Frequenting the art district of Wynwood for backgrounds in photos was an interesting experience, as I always felt like with each visit I was just seeing more and more.
Monday, August 11, 2014
Whats challenging and fun about cosplaying a character from "Welcome to Night Vale" is there is no predetermined look. In many cases, cosplayers research and stare at source images trying to get their costumes as close as possible or purposely altering the design to fit their own vision. But with Night Vale there is much more left to your imagination. "Welcome to Night Vale" is a podcast series told from the perspective of a radio host named Cecil Palmer. Cecil reports on the goings-ons of "a friendly desert community where the sun is hot, the moon is beautiful, and mysterious lights pass overhead while we all pretend to sleep." If you haven't listened to this podcast, you really should. It has great POC characters, a canon homosexual relationship, music played as weather segments, and tons of dark humor.
Monday, July 7, 2014
Many of you may have been wondering where I've been lately and my only excuse is that June was an awfully stressful month. With personal anxieties and stresses plus the blood, sweat, and tears I was putting in to my cosplays, it feels like there was either no time or spirit for blogging. But now that FSC has come and gone, I'm in a good place to take this up again with a little write-up about my 3-day con experience. Unfortunately I didn't take any pictures. Since I was in cosplay and because I kept forgetting my camera strap (seriously who does that?) I didn't touch my camera once. I had originally booked cosplay shoots and was looking forward to the event as a way to really get in to that scene, but once I was there my social anxiety kicked in and I was far too sheepish to even ask people for quick photos on my phone. Being a HSP I get particularly overwhelmed with the over-stimulation of convention floors, but I'm hoping that with more exposure to these types of environments I can slowly get used to it. The photos of this post were all taken by my lovely boyfriend, so I apologize for any less-than-stellar compositions and blurred shots..he is a newbie after all.